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14 October 2011, Rainy.

As I turned back, i saw the back of you strolling off in the opposite direction. My heart muscles tighten to the extend that I couldn't feel anything, neither could I have done anything to stop it. I feel so lonely without you, you were always the one who make my day, the one always there for me. Now that you're gone, what left in me is a fire without it's flame. I struggle through my everyday life, I tried so hard to be as happy as I could, I laughed over anything even its not funny just to show that I'm okay. I tried so hard to avoid places we went, I tried to avoid bumping into you. For all I did, I knew that I could not hold on to myself anymore. Every word you spoke ran through the nerves of my brain and struck my heart down. I thought I could make it without you, I thought I can give a smile from my heart without you by my side. I thought.. and I realised that what I thought isn't what it is. I miss you. My eyes would turn red for every single thing I see, I hear, I feel that is affiliated to you. Baby, I really need another chance, I need you. I will do anything for you.