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15 October 2011 , Sunny.

I woke up with my eyes glittering red. It happens almost everyday after you left. Whenever I used to get nightmares, you would always be the first one comforting me telling me that you're still there. But now that the nightmare isn't just what it is. It's the reality that I never want to face. I hugged my bolster so tightly and yelled your name inside my heart as tears penetrate through my eyes. Melancholy strike me mercilessly, I thought to be dead at that point of time, it was so strong that I could hardly hold myself back.

For the very first time, I am so careful with my words when it comes to you. I can't tell you that I miss you, I need you. All I could say that I had a nice day, a nice day without you. How true could it be? I'm getting more and more restless as day pass by. With every of your word, it actually made my day, I miss it when you look into my eyes and assure me, I miss your sweet voice that always never fail to touch my heart. The voice that would always sound in the time of need.

As I passed by the place where we used to be, I can't take my eyes off. I can't bring myself to stop my thoughts of you. Baby, where are you? I miss you. I'm so tired of putting on that fake smile everyday. I'm so emaciated. But no matter what, I will still be waiting for you here.

心情沉重的我只能装作什么都没发生过，失去了你，我自己也不懂自己是谁。 我忘不了你优雅，美丽，毫无瑕疵的微笑。 过着听不到你的撒娇与怨言的日子，我真的很不习惯。 我受的这一切你多看不到。你在哪里? 我好想念你哦。
-永远等待你， 爱着你的我。