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30th November 2011, darkness.

It's 2am in the morning. I'm either half asleep or maybe it's just that my mind is too occupied. I spent my whole time fidgeting on the bed I came to a stop when you reappeared in my mind. I thought that you were forgotten. I thought I would be alright, I would still be I am without you. Not till I found out that I still have fear. I'm afraid of you, I'm so scared that I couldn't face myself, because I made so much mistakes. And losing you is one of them. Everything came back like a gust, I thought I could lie to myself, I thought I acted well enough that nobody knows. The fear that you used to possess is now tearing me apart, I'm struggling. I wish for nothing else but you. I lied to everyone, and they seemed that they believe it so much just because I looked like I don't care. Now that you're gone , I'm left with the world me and only myself. Not us anymore . I miss you .